Somewhere in Between

So you know how I always say things to me are best expressed lyrically? Well today these are part of my lyrics.

I can't be

Losing sleep over this

No I can't

And now I cannot stop pacing

Give me a few hours

I'll have this all sorted out

If my mind would just stop racing

I'm fine. For those of you reading this going "What the hell is going on?" I'm fine. I just have someone on my heart. I'm not sure what to do. It's weighing pretty heavy on my heart and mind. A big part of me wants to help them. I just know that by doing that I will be inviting things back into my life that I'm not entirely sure I want. I just hope that they know in their heart that I love them and I'm praying for them.

February...

So this month there are some people in my life that have birthdays. I would like to take this blog oppurtunity to acknowledge them. They are some very special people that I love with all of my heart.

My Aunt Leaoma, she's my other mother.....I love her with my entire heart. I can remember going to her house in Lubbock and her making me cookies when I was little. Now she sends me Avon packages. She's the greatest. Her birthday is on the 21st. She's one of the most beautiful ladies ever. I know that if I need honesty she's the person to go to. She's always someone I can call and tell them exactly what's on my mind and she doesn't even bat and eye. I love that about her. She's truly the greatest. And yes I know she's reading this and I'm in trouble for putting up the picture.....deal with it....I love you.

My Aunt Lita & Clint (my cousin) have birthdays on the 23rd & 25th....I always get the dates confused on whose is which date. But I love them dearly. Clint & I graduated together. He was there for me through alot of broken hearts and alot of fun times. He was one of my very best friends through high school and I love him very much. My Aunt Lita has always been such a blessing. She's always so thoughtful and gets you cards for your birthday and Christmas and every holiday in between. She always remembers the little things. She's pretty awesome.

Next month has a pretty special birthday or 2 in it as well.....but I wanted to wish these people a happy birthday. They are very near & dear to my heart.

Electricity!

So it's been at least 9 days since I last blogged. We've been without electricity because of a snow & ice storm that came through the great state of Oklahoma. Let me tell you that after being without electricity for more than a week I have never been more happy to be able to clean house in my life. We've been taking our dog and going to my parents house and doing laundry but when we've been here in the evenings we still couldn't do dishes or anything like that. So my house has been a wreck. Today I have been catching up on the rest of our laundry and dishes and I have to say, I'm not even going to bitch about it. Sitting in the dark was no fun. Having to go without my computer sucked. I'm so happy to see this beautiful screen come to life. In the grand scheme of things, I'm pretty spoiled. I can walk in and turn on a light to see my beautiful house anytime that I want to, I can switch on a box and see something that is happening all the way across the world from me (usually it's sports related), and I can get online and communicate with my best friend who lives at least an hour away. Not everyone has that luxury. Some people don't have the luxury of hot & cold running water. I have to say that sitting in the cold & dark house for a few days makes you realize just how good your life really is. I have the greatest life. The greatest husband. The greatest family. And some very awesome friends. They kept me going this week. For that I am very grateful.