He's a Hero

This week I was cleaning and I discovered some old CD's. Yes, I realize I am a dying breed. I still buy CD's to this day. Anyway, I have been listening to them for days on end. I just started putting then all on my computer. I discovered an old SheDaisy CD...Sweet Right Here. I loved their music. They became popular when I was a senior in high school. I own every cd they ever put out. Sweet Right Here has a hidden song on it called "He's A Hero". It is one of the most beautiful songs ever and it reminded me of my Pawpaw tonight.

My Pawpaw has always been this amazing, strong, loving individual. He's always served God in every way possible. He always took in anyone that needed anything. He has loved my Mammaw with every fiber of his being. And he has taught us all how to live a life for Christ, love our spouse, and how to be a wonderful, loving parent. He's amazing. I think I've always considered him mine, and just mine. You see, when I was about 18 months old I had a very rare disease and doctors weren't really sure if I was going to make it. I had Kawasaki's Disease. At the time, not many people knew anything about it. They flew me to Children's in OKC and they flew in an Asian doctor to treat me. At the time this disease was more prevalent in Asian children. This doctor either knew what he was doing or my Pawpaw and God talked enough that God said, "Okay, Dean, I give. You can keep her." I'm not sure which was the case really. But, I do know that my Pawpaw prayed for me a lot during that time. Our relationship has always been very strong. I've always been his and he's always been mine. Just to prove how special our bond is...he gets to call me Denise....yes, DenisE. NO ONE ever calls me Denise without getting their head bitten off. But, Pawpaw does and he gets away with it every single time.

Anyway, Pawpaw has been having a hard year this year. He has been having trouble with his heart and it has been my turn to sit and talk to God. God and I have talked a LOT and I don't know why everyone doubts that he's listening. But, I have always been told that all you need is faith like a mustard seed. Well, I have that faith. My Pawpaw may have gotten knocked down this year, but, I know he's going to be just fine. He's tough and he's a fighter. I know that it has been hard for everyone to see him not be the strong one for the first time. But, sometimes, the strong ones need a rest. That's all this is. It's a rest. He's going to get back up and carry on like before. He just needs a minute to catch his breath. I guess I get it because I am just like him in so many ways. I am expected to be the strong one for everyone. I don't get to ever have a rest either and to be honest, it isn't fair. Having to be the strong one for everyone sucks. Everyone always needs you and needs your shoulder and let me tell you, your shoulders get tired after a while. My Pawpaw is 82 this year in December. 82 years of being the strong one should get you a year off in my opinion.

"He's A Hero"

He's a young man
In his golden years
His hair of black now quickly fades to gray
The limp as he walks is his only souvenir
From those purple-hearted war time days

But you don't hear him complain
No matter how the fall
I don't have a lot, he'd smile and say
But lord I have it all

He's a hero
In my mother's eyes
He taught her how to raise me right
and never compromise
He always says he has the
finer things in life
Somewhere to live, someone to love
and the Good book to live by

Some say his heart is big
All though his fortune's small
I don't have a lot, he'd smile and say
But lord I have it all

A rembrandt in his own right
A master at his craft
Creating something beautiful
A memory that will last
And always last

He's the constant
In our family
Beginning this long line of love
We've cared
And even when he's gone he'll watch over me
When I close my eyes at night I feel him there

Wear my name, well my child
Be true and stand tall
You don't have a lot he'd always say
But lord you have it all

You don't have a lot he'd always say
But thank the Lord you have it all

Hero in my mother's eyes

Happy Birthday, Booie!

Many years ago I was blessed to meet my best friend, Booie. It was long before she had her son and even before I was out of school. We started out just as acquaintances, she worked with my Mom at the law office. I occasionally borrowed fancy dresses for prom or Valentine's banquets. After she had Hunter we started getting to know each other better. 

Through the years we have become great friends. She wanted to start teaching yoga and I decided I would go and let her teach me. We became very close. She has taught me yoga off and on for over 10 years. She taught me while I was pregnant. Her voice has a calming effect on me and so I had her in the room while I was in labor. I swear if I could have our cool down on tape I would be able to fall asleep much easier at night. 

Anyway, Liz is the kind of friend I can talk to about anything and everything. I've never had someone that I could be friends with and not have to constantly take care of. Liz is that friend. We take care of each other. We are honest and open with each other and it is the most freeing relationship I've ever had. I've never had a friend that is like her. 

I can say I'm blessed beyond what I deserve to have her in my life. If there is ever a need, Liz is there and ready to help. If there is anything going on, she is there to listen. If my family needs prayers, Booie is praying. Liz doesn't just do for my little family. When my Mom had surgery a few years ago she sent a gift basket of gift cards to resturants around town so my Dad didn't have to cook and they didn't have to worry about all of that. She is the most thoughtful and caring person there is. I can never truly express to her how much she means to me. 

Today is Booie's birthday and I hope she is celebrated big. There are so many people, just like me, that she has touched. So many people that love her just as much as I do. She is pretty special. So, Liz, if you are reading this, know that you are loved and hold a very special place in my heart. Happy Birthday!