Lately the stresses of being a one income family have been weighing heavily on me. I feel like we have no money a lot of times and feel helpless about it because I don't have a "real job". It's so stressful. I could easily go get one. I've been told by the store manager at walmart that if I want a job (ever) to just call and I have one. I know he means it. I've worked for him in the past and I overheard him telling someone that I was "one of the best hands you could have work for you." so I know I can get a job. But what's the point in getting one when we would have to pay for child care? Child care would cost as much as I would make. And Seth and I really don't want someone else watching our kid.
So you see, I'm stuck. Wanting to help my little family an no way to really do so. It is such a jar thing for me. In a "fixer" and I just can't seem to fix this. I can't seem to make it always be okay and it makes me crazy. So today I am baking to relieve a little bit of the stress. To try and get my mind off of it.
So Talent will get to enjoy his first cupcake later today. It should be a big mess. I'm glad I will get to be here to see it.
