Things change and still they remain the same....

Well things here have been crazy & hectic lately. We were all sick a few weeks back. Seth has been working hard to put on our new metal roof. And we've been trying to get the house ready for a baby who is wanting to walk & crawl....in that order. The last 6 months have been crazy and stressful for me. I've been trying to adjust to so many changes in my life.

For 15 years I've had a job and now I stay at home every day and take care of this sweet boy. That in itself is a big adjustment for me. I've had to work since I was 15 and now to not have to is weird. I love being home with Talent, don't get me wrong. It's just an adjustment.

Also I've been trying to readjust to doing things alone. I've always been the type of person to never depend on others because let's face it, they end up letting you down. And for the last several years I've had people I have depended on to be there day in and day out just for daily interactions. Well they are too busy with their own lives anymore. It feels like I'm going back to the days of depending on myself again. People say they'll call but they never do. They email occasionally and that's great when I have time to sit & read. But I miss the grown up interactions. Playing with a baby is great but baby talk gets old sometimes and I really miss adult conversation.

Lastly I have decided to start doing some things for myself. Since Talent was born I've just concentrated on him. Dressing him cute and making sure he has all the things he needs. I've let myself go some and I want to change that. Most days I spend with my hair up in a ponytail and comfy clothes on. I want to start dressing cute again and spending a little more time on my hair so that I feel a little better about myself. I'm not saying Talent won't always look as adorable as he does....because he will....it's more important to me for him to be cute. But I think I can dress a little cuter and let myself feel a little better about myself in the process.

Anyway....that's what is going on here lately. Everything is the same as it always is....with a few changes.....

?

So I am getting my house ready for a baby who is ready to start trying to crawl. I've been trying to clean around here and move chemicals to higher shelves and cabinets. I was cleaning in the kitchen and stumbled across an old makeup bag that I had placed in a cabinet for some strange reason. It had stuff in it I hadn't seen in years. In it was a ring that I have had since I was probably 14 or 15. My Uncle Paul used to wear it. It's a big square with a black stone and a silver question mark on it. I remember asking about it one day and he just took it off and gave it to me. I loved my Uncle Paul. It's getting really close to the time of year that he passed away. Finding this ring really brings back some memories for me.

This summer we had some of our extended family here to visit and meet my sweet baby. My Pawpaw's brother & sister came up and met him and it was so sweet seeing them with him. It was hard for me at times though. I couldn't help but think of how much my Uncle Paul would have loved my baby boy. I know that he's up in heaven watching him though.

I had a pretty rough year the year my Uncle Paul passed away. I lost a lot of people that year. Talent didn't get to meet a lot of people that I held very near and dear to my heart. But I have no doubts that they are watching over him from Heaven.