Everclear

One of my most favorite bands of all times is Everclear. I LOVE their sound. I realize most people don't like them and most people think I'm insane for my crazy taste in music but I love them. This week has been insane. I lost a cousin in a motorcycle wreck last Thursday. Saturday my very close friend from church, Suzie, passed away. She was Isaac's wife, I blogged about him 2 years ago when he passed away. Then today my Mom & Dad had a wreck. They were in a hit & run. Luckily they are okay, just very sore. The guy that hit them was caught and arrested. I'm thankful for the teens that stopped and comforted my Mom and Dad before I was able to get there. And I am so glad the two men who saw it happen chased down the moron who hit them so the police could arrest him. He's now going to jail because he didn't have a license & he left the scene of an accident. He's just lucky I wasn't there before the cops or he'd be a whole lot worse off.

Anyway. Back to Everclear. This song sums up some of how I feel this week. I'm overwhelmed and feel like I've been everything to everyone and haven't had time to deal with my own hurt. I haven't had time to deal with all of the stress from everything going on in my own life the last few weeks. I'm stressed, I'm exhausted, & I'm emotionally drained. So here's my song for the week.


Everything to Everyone
Everclear

You put yourself in stupid places
Yes I think you know it's true
Situations where it's easy to look down on you
I think you like to be the victim
I think you like to be in pain
I think you make yourself the victim
Almost every single day

You do what you do
You say what you say
You try to be everything to everyone
You know all the right people
You play all the right games
You always try to be
Everything to everyone

Yeah you do it again
You always do it again

You say they taught you how to read and write
They taught you how to count
I say they taught you how to buy and sell
Your own body by the pound
I think you like to be their simple toy
I think you love to play the clown
I think you are blind to the fact
That the hand you hold
Is the hand that holds you down

You do what you do
You say what you say
You try to be everything to everyone
You know all the right people
You play all the right games
You always try to be
Everything to everyone

Yeah you do it again
You always do it again

Spin around and fall down
Do it again
You stumble and you fall
Yeah why won't you ever learn
Spin around and fall down
Do it again
You stumble and you fall
I wonder if you will ever learn

Why won't you ever learn

Come on now
Do that stupid dance for me

You do what they tell you to do
You say what they say
You try to be
Everything to everyone

Spin around and fall down
Do it again
You stumble and you fall
Yeah you do it again
Spin around and fall down
Do it again
You stumble and you fall

Hats....

Have you ever heard the song "Hats" by Amy Grant? Well, if you haven't you should. In that song she talks about all the different "hats" she wears.

I personally wear many hats. I'm a wife, mom, sister, daughter, and so many more. Today I wore one of my favorite hats & at times one of the most difficult. Favorite/best grand kid.

My Mom called me at about 9 to tell me that my Aunt Betty's grandson, Anthony had a motorcycle wreck this morning and was killed. My Mammaw was home alone and absolutely heartbroken. Mom asked me to get dressed and go take care of her. I jumped in the truck, no make up, dressed like a hobo, hair up in a messy ponytail and took off. I've never seen my Mammaw so upset. It broke my heart. I just hugged her an held her until my Pawpaw made it home. My Aunt Betty & Mammaw are best friends. This is as hard on Mammaw as it is my Aunt Betty. I'm glad I was able to be there for my Mammaw even though the rest of my day has been emotional. I love that woman more than she will ever know. To be the one comforting her today felt strange because she's always the one comforting me. So it was different but in glad I was there for her.

Wearing all these different hats is hard at times. Today wearing my most favorite was hard. I'm a fixer naturally and so not being able to fix this hurts my heart. So anyone that wants to pray for my family, be my guest. We will definitely be needing it.