Day 29

My gosh. Thirty days has flown by. I can't believe there is only one day left. Today I guess I'd like to say I'm thankful for the material things I have that make my life exciting and enjoyable. It may seem shallow but I am thankful for many material things. So here's a small list of things I cherish most.

My iPod, without it my world would have no music and it would be so empty. My Kindle, it keeps me entertained when my husband is in a sports zone and I want to be in the same room. Photoshop, without it my creative juices would sit and spoil. My keurig, some mornings it is the only thing that gets me going. My car gets me where I need to go. And lastly my home. It is where we live and make the best memories.

These material things are just a few of the many things that I'm thankful for. They make my life easier. They aren't everything to me but I am thankful to have them.

Day 28

New friends. I am not an easy person to get to know. I put up walls and don't let many people in because I've been hurt too many times. But every once in a while I open up that door and let someone in. I did that recently. I'm happy to say, I think it was a good decision. So today I'm thankful for my new friend and I look forward to the days of getting to know each other. Lunch dates, shopping dates, and nights or days where just get the chance to talk and let our babies play.

Day 27

Road trips! Yesterday we took a short road trip to Walters to return a trailer that Seth had borrowed. Walters is about an hour and a half from where we live. The road we had to drive down was one I traveled when I was in my early twenties. It brought back some great memories of past road trips with my sweet friend, Ashley. I love taking road trips and making those memories. Road trips with family are a little different than road trips were with Ash. But, I love them. I'm thankful for those times together and the memories we make.

Day 26

A few years ago the 26th was Thanksgiving. My Uncle Paul was in the hospital. I was spending the holiday with my husbands family that year. Right before our lunch started I received a call from my Mom saying they were going to OKC because my uncle had taken a turn for the worse and things didn't look good.

My Uncle Paul passed away that day. It was a day I will never forget. The world lost a great man. I lost a big part of my world. I'm thankful that I had as much time as I did with him. I am thankful I was able to make as many memories as I did. That I was able to hear as many of his wild "Thompson Tales" as I did. I will never forget his deep southern voice. Or how it took him thirty five minutes to tell a five minute story. I'm so thankful for the time I had with him. Heaven definitely gained an angel with him.

Day 25

Oklahoma. The Sooner Nation. Yesterday was our Bedlam Football game and our Sooners won. I'm thankful for that victory! I know to most that seems so silly to be thankful for. And yes, maybe it is a little silly. But here in my house, we live football and basketball. It is all that's on our tv this time of year. This last year I've been invited to fill out a basketball bracket for the March Madness playoffs and I came in 2nd. I was also invited to play college pick'em for the first time and I'm currently ahead of my brother in law & husband. I'm a girl who grew up in the city lights. Not watching any sports at all. And here I am today coming in second and also Beating guys that eat, sleep, & breath sports?? I am loving this new part of life. Yes I may still pick like a girl (who has the better team color/mascot) but I'm enjoying this. I'm thankful for the new found love of sports.

So until next years bedlam game.....BOOMER SOONER!

Day 24

So I have two little cousins. I am quite certain they are my clones. I call them my "mini me's" because they act a lot like me. At times it is downright scary. The older they get, the worse it gets.

Today I am thankful for one Miss Bethany Paige and one Miss Madison Noel. You two girls make me so proud. You are so fun and loving and strong. I know you read my blog and will see this. Your attitudes make me laugh because you remind me of myself at your age. So stubborn.

I have to say, this post is going to be different. I want you both to know, I love you. I wish more than anything you girls lived here or at least within driving distance so we could hang more than a week during the summer. You keep me on my toes. You make life an adventure and even though sometimes you make me a little crazy.....I wouldn't trade you for the world. I hope you know how much you are loved. Now and always. You are my mini's. I'm proud of you.

Day 23

Today I'm thankful for my friend, Jennifer. Jennifer and I have known each other for over ten years. We've been through so much together. She was my friend before I was married so she was part of my life during some of my worst relationships. I have been with her through some of her toughest moments too.

Jenn and I haven't always seen eye to eye on everything. We haven't always been in constant contact. But we have always had the type of relationship where we could just pick up where we left off. No matter how long we ever went without talking. Everything always seemed the same with us.

My Jenny is one of the strongest women I know. She doesn't always see the strength that I see. But it's there. She's funny and sweet. She's a great friend. I'm so glad we met. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have her. There have been days when I've just needed her and she has said, "Come by my office. I'm here.." And I have gone and hugged her and my world was a little better than before. I love my Jennifer. She's one of the best friends I've ever had. I can talk to her about anything. And I can trust her with anything. She's golden in my book. A true friend an a rare find.

Day 22

Happy Thanksgiving! Today I'm thankful for time with family. Our time was cut a little short today because Talent has been sick. But we were able to spend an hour with each of our families today. It was so wonderful to have the time with them. So that is my thankful for today. Time. Time to be with the ones you love the most and make memories. I hope everyone else had a wonderful day and made beautiful memories with the ones you love!

Day 21

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. With that brings so many emotions for me. The last Thanksgiving I had before I got married was also the last one we had with my Pawpaw. Thanksgiving reminds me of his last visit with us. I can remember waking up an coming into the living room to watch the parade like I do every year. The look on my parents faces said it all. Pawpaw had been up for hours telling them stories about people they didn't know and who had probably been long gone for years. They were basically playing a game of tag....and I was suddenly "it". It didn't matter. I watched the parade and let him babble. I will never forget that Thanksgiving.

My Pawpaw Bazil was a great man. He was the first paid fireman in Mineral Wells. He used to buy us a fire truck for Christmas every year when we were little and he'd stick his picture in the window of the drivers side. He built his own fire trick. We always got to climb on it when we visited him at the station. He had a love for chocolate covered cherries and this time of year I always buy a box and eat them in his honor. He loved country music. Thought my Momma couldn't make biscuits to save her life. And he always knew how to make us smile. He was a great man.

I'm so thankful for all of the time I did have with him. I'm thankful that I will have these memories for my lifetime. I'm glad I can share his legacy with Talent. I'm thankful I had such a wonderful grandpa.

So, Pawpaw Bazil....here's to you. I'm thankful I ever had you. My Daddy is so much like you. I'm thankful that you were such a good influence on him. I'm thankful that you were mine. I love you forever.

Day 20

Last night Seth and I had a rare chance to watch a movie together. This doesn't happen often but I love when it does. I enjoy the one on one time with him.

Last night we rented the Expendables 2. We are both big Sylvester Stallone fans. So we watch just about anything he's in.

I love times like this. When we get to have time together. That's something I'm thankful for.

Day 17,18,&19

Okay so I missed a few days. We had my nephews birthday party on Saturday, church yesterday, and well, today has just been busy.

I have thought about what I was thankful for over the last few days and wanted to just write about one thing. It's a really big thing.

I'm writing today about God. I serve this amazing God that provides what I need. Since I've been staying at home with Talent things have been hard at times. Money gets tight sometimes. It causes stress. But I've always seen that God has provided a way. He has made it possible for us to have what we need.

I have some friends that aren't believers. I have never pushed my beliefs on them. I hope that they see through my actions what God does for my life. I'm thankful that I have a relationship with him. I'm thankful that when I need guidance all I have to do is pray. I am glad I have a relationship with God. I'm glad I've met people along the way that pray with & for me. So that's my big thankful. God.

Day 16

Today I was able to pet a pig! If you know me well, you know this made my entire year! I have a bit of a love for farm animals and want to have cows, a horse, a donkey, a pig, and a duck. I have cows...and I'd settle for just adding a donkey. But today we went to have lunch with Seth's dad. He told us about the pig show going on in town. After we finished lunch, Seth took us to the fairgrounds to see what we could see. I saw a ton of pigs, big, little, and all sizes in between! I was able to sweet talk a young man into letting me pet one of his baby pigs. I'm sure he thought I was crazy. But it totally made my year.

I write all of this about the pigs because today my thankful post is about what my in laws bring into my life.

My father in law has invited us to go on several trips to really awesome places. I've been to DC and so to Yellowstone. They have taken us to a Ranger game. And we always have such a good time. What I'm trying to say is, my in laws have introduced me to so many wonderful places and wonderful things. My father in law knows a little bit about just about everything and he's always teaching me something. He is one of the greatest men I've ever known and I'm blessed to have a father in law as wonderful as him.

My mother in law has taken me in and treated me like part of the family. I try and treat her as well as I would want someone to treat my Mom. My mother in law is one of the most fun ladies is ever met. She has a history that is quite colorful. She's done so many interesting things in her life. I know there have been times when I've had so much going on and she has been there for me. She's a great lady. Very full of life.

I'm very blessed to have such wonderful in laws. I was reminded today just how wonderful they are. They help us when we least expect it. They teach us new things an love us. I'm thankful.

Day 15

My friend, Elizabeth. Where do I even start. She's a friend like no other I've ever had. She loves my kid like he were we own blood. She treats me like I'm family. She has helped me to grow into a better person. I've know Elizabeth since I was about 16 or 17. We've been through so much together. Births, marriages, a divorce, and a lot of growth. She is someone I consider a role model. A really great one. The world would be a better place if more people could follow her lead.

I see how she has taken a family that is divorced and made it into this amazing thing. She loves her ex husbands children. She babysits them. She has a relationship with them. I watch how she interacts with them and I see a woman full of grace and love. Yes, there were moments in the beginning when things weren't so easy. But to see them all now, you'd be amazed. You'd be as in awe at the beauty of how she handles things. If the rest f the world followed her lead, I truly believe this world would be a much better place.

Liz is one of my most "grown up" friends. What I mean by that is that she listens to me when I call her with a problem. She doesn't always side with me. She makes me think about things in a different way. She gives me another view point and makes me stop my way of thinking and reevaluate the situation. Really think about what I'm saying and makes me open my mind up. I love that about her.

To say that Liz is a great friend is an understatement. Over the years our bond has gotten stronger. She has been there for so much. She remains a constant in my life and I love her. So today I'm very thankful for Elizabeth. Without her I wouldn't be where I am. She is one of those friends that makes me be a better person.

Day 14

Today is a special day. My best friend's baby girl turns one today! So happy birthday, Kaitlyn Elizabeth! You were one of the biggest and greatest surprises ever!

Since it's Kaitlyn's birthday I thought today would be the perfect day to say how thankful I am for Kaitlyn and her two brothers, Alex and Logan. Years ago when Alex was about two and Logan was just a baby, Shawna and I became friends. We clicked pretty much instantly and we've been best friends since. I formed a connection to her children. They became my "nephews" and last year when Kaitlyn was born I got to have a "niece"!!!

I love these children with everything I have. I love them as if they were my own blood. When they struggle or have things they need help with, I try hard I help find ways to fix the problem or help them with whatever they are struggling with.

Alex has a delay called Apraxia of speech and also Apraxia of limb. It makes things a little harder for him. But I research often and try to find things to send to Shawna to help him. I've joined groups to learn more about Apraxia. I read about it so that if there is something that comes up and Shawna needs help or an idea that is kinda out of the box, maybe I can help. I would do anything I could to help him. He is one of the smartest and most determined (almost) eight year olds I've ever met. He's pretty amazing.

Logan is this fun and very imaginative little boy. He has a personality that truly reminds me of myself. I am always laughing at things he says. I will never forget the time he saw a larger man in the store who had on a short that showed his belly. He asked why the guy didn't buy a bigger shirt because no one wanted to see that. Ad then he makes the comments we all want to make to the boy sagging his pants at the grocery store. He just cracks me up. There is never a dull moment with him around. He loved wearing costumes. He loves to encourage his big brother. He's the sweetest and most loving child ever. To live in Logan's world for even a day would make the whole world a much better place.

Miss Kaitlyn is this loud and fun little girl. She's got those two big brothers wrapped around her fingers. She is fun and a big ball of energy. Always going and always smiling. She is so sweet and so friendly. I can't wait to see what her personality develops into.

These kids are just the sweetest kids I've ever come across. Respectful and well mannered. They are happy and loving. I'm so glad I get to be part of their lives.

Day 13

I'm thankful for my grandparents. I have the two most wonderful grandparents that ever walked the face of this earth. They have taught me how to live a Christian life. They have taught me how to be a giving and loving person. They have taught me so very much. I love them with my whole entire heart. I know most people my age are very lucky to still have any grandparents. I'm blessed to have two. They are the greatest two a person could ask for. I have so many memories with my Mammaw and Pawpaw. And I'm very thankful that Talent will have memories with them too. They are the best. I'm glad I have them. I'm glad I don't have to share often because I'm not good at it. I don't know what I would do without them. All I know is I love them.

Day 12

Well Veteran's Day and the Marine Corps birthday was this weekend. I have had several Vet's that I love pass on. I'm thankful that they lived and served. I have one Veteran and Marine that is currently serving in Virginia that I'm very proud to call a friend. It's my husbands best friend, Michael.

When Michael and I met for the very first time, I was less than impressed. He was loud and obnoxious. At times he could be quite crude. But I've now known him for almost 10 years. And if you know me at all, you know that once you're a friend I'm loyal to the core. Michael and I have become friends. He comes home to see us once or twice a year. He and Seth spend the whole day fishing or hunting hogs out on his families land. Then they come here and I cook dinner for them...every night he's home....or close to it. Michael is Seth's best friend. He and Seth have been friends since they were about six or seven years old. They are like brothers. I'm glad we have Michael in our lives. He is the only friend of Seth's that I know isn't going anywhere. He's a good guy. I'm thankful that my husband has such a great friend and that I've made a friend too.

Day 11

I'm thankful for my farm. I say farm and use that term quite loosely. We have 31 acres and 8 cows. In the spring there will be at least three more born.

Growing up I never imagined living out in the country. I was a city girl. I hate mud and all things that get you dirty. But something about it out here has really grown on me. It's quiet out here at night. You can see the stars at night. It's peaceful. I've really grown to love my country life. I can't even imagine having to live in town now.

Being out here you have room to breathe and space to think. And somedays I need that. So today that's what I'm most thankful for.

Day 10

Today I'm thankful for my sweet dogs. Tonight as Talent was playing he kept running over to Redick and petting him or collapsing on his back in a fit of giggles. Do you know what Redick did? He raised his head and looked at Talent and then laid back down. Like he knew that Talent was just wanting to love on him and that this is now his life.

Between my two dogs I have to say I'm very blessed. They love my kid and protect us. Seth works a crazy schedule and isn't always home when the sun goes down. These two dogs make me feel safe. I know as long as I have them no one is coming through our front door and leaving without holes in them from one of my dogs or my gun. I feel protected. I feel safe. And on days that are bad, I feel very loved. These two crazy dogs are a part of our family. We love them.

So today is for Riley & Redick. My two fur babies. I'm glad I have them. I would t trade them for the world.

Day 9

Today I'm thankful for my sweet boy. I'm thankful for him every single day of his sweet little life. I begged and pleaded for this child. My husband wasn't so sold on the idea of kids.

After five years of marriage we finally decided we would give this a shot. It took what felt like forever to get pregnant. It took over a year and there were a lot of tears and a lot of pregnancy tests that (at least in my mind) flipped me off and laughed at me. Me being a person who likes to be in control, this venture was one of the hardest. I wanted a baby.

When I finally found out I was pregnant it was the best day. I was excited and nervous. It was a rough pregnancy filled with nine very long months of morning sickness. Finally the day arrived when Talent was born. That day was filled with so many emotions. I remember after I had him I didn't get to see him or hold him right away. I did get testy with a nurse about it and they finally brought him to me. Seth had been awake for over 30 hours. I had been in labor for 22. I ended up having a c section and it made it to where I needed help and meds to be able to function the first day or two. Seth got to hold him and hand him to me. He then went to sleep and I stayed awake holding this precious little life that I'd been carrying inside me for 9 months. It was the most amazing feeling in the world. I didn't want to go to sleep but finally the meds took over and I had to.

Waking up each day to Talent's sweet face and him hollering "Mom" from his crib is something I will cherish always. Yes, some mornings when it's five and I'm so tired I think to myself "kid please sleep!" But I still love when I walk in the room and see his face light up and hear his happy little voice greet me. And when he buries his head in my chest before I can even pick him up because he wants to hug me tight, oh it melts my heart. This kid is so sweet. Always wanting to give me hugs or needing to hold my hand when we eat dinner or watch The Wiggles. I'm thankful that he's so sweet and loving. I'm thankful I have him in my life. He makes me a better person. I love being a mom. But most of all, I love being Talent's mom.

Day 8

Today I'm thankful for the people in my child's life that give me the answers that calm my heart.

This past week had been a rough one with lots of hives and a bit of wheezing. Talent was allergy tested in July and we received a list of things he is allergic to. A few of them he can have in moderation, a few we've never seen a single sign of an allergy, and then there are at least two that are very severe. His severe allergies scare me the worst. Peanuts and soy are his most severe allergies. This week he had reactions after several different things he ate and we just couldn't pinpoint what the cause was. I had called his doctor last week because he had hives and he was put on an oral steroid for a few days. This week we ended up in urgent med and then at his ENT's office. They finally have decided we can do more testing on the blood sample they took in July. I was happy to find out they keep his blood on file in a fancy lab somewhere just for situations like this. Yesterday at urgent med I felt very dismissed. Like nothing I said was even heard. They wanted my money and nothing else. Today at the ENT I actually felt validated. Dr. Kati listened to me and looked at as many pictures of my hive covered baby as I wanted to show her. She never made me feel rushed. She took the time to calm my fears and help me feel less frustrated.

Today is not the first time I've been calmed by one of Talent's caregivers. His regular doctor is just as wonderful. Last week when Talent was broke out in hives I called his office and left a message for a nurse. I was later told she didn't have time to call in an RX for him and that I needed to make an appointment. Well being a Monday I understood that the chances of me getting him in were pretty slim so I emailed his doctor directly. Within 20 minutes Dr. Herndon called me. He asked what was going on and told me he would call him in a steroid. And about 10 minutes later I was able to pick it up at the pharmacy. Dr. Herndon has been my doctor for 31 years. He delivered me. He has always been so easy for me to talk to. And now that I'm a parent there is no one else I trust to care for my child.

Between Talent's ENT and his regular doctor, I'm pretty blessed. You don't find doctors that have the time to listen to you anymore. Most of them are in such a hurry that they have forgotten why they are doing the job they do. These two of Talent's are pretty amazing. I'm thankful to have found them. I'm thankful that they are able to answer all of my paranoid mommy questions and calm all of my mommy fears.

Day 7

Have you ever seen "Bride Wars"? The two main characters in the movie are the very best of friends. They can't go one day without talking. They are so close. They feel lost without each other. Try can pretty much feel the others emotions like a freaky twin thing even though they aren't related. They bring out the best in each other and are there to fill in the gaps where the other has weaknesses. Liv & Emma are pretty much my best friend and me.

Shawna and I have known each other for years. We weren't always best friends though. I was friends with her brother in high school. After high school and college, we reconnected. We discovered we had a connection that is so unique. It has been tested over the years by distance, people, silence, babies, and so much more. But we've weathered every storm.

Shawna has been a constant in my life for over 7 years. She and I may have had moments in the past where we didn't talk often. We have even had moments where we didn't like each other a whole lot. But we have always found our way back together. We've always found a way to work things out. I'm thankful for that.

Shawna and I are best friends. Our relationship is a weird one that most people will never understand. We don't live in the same town. We see each other a handful of times a year. We talk maybe once or twice a week on a good week. We email every single day. But somehow when one of us needs the other we just feel it. Deep in our hearts it nags us and we have to call and hear the others voice.

I can't put into words today just how thankful I am to have my "Emma girl", Shawna. Although our relationship takes work at times, I wouldn't trade it for anything in this world. I am glad we have worked through our ups and downs and stayed as close as we have. So Shawna as you read this, know you are very loved. I'm proud to have you as my best friend. Love you!

Day 6

Today is Election Day. I've voted in every major election since I turned 18. It was the first big girl thing I did after turning 18. I registered the day I turned 18. I don't smoke so going out and being able to buy cigs wasn't a fancy fun thing to do. But voting, that right there just always sparked something in me. Being able to participate in a decision that was so much bigger than myself. Over the years I've voted for some great presidents and other offices that were up for election at the time. I remember watching the John Kerry & Bush debates. I hated John Kerry with every fiber of my being. I remember being so glad I had a right to vote that year. Unlike most people I loved (and still do) George W. Bush. Something about him was relatable. He seemed human. He made mistakes and didn't speak perfectly. His past was a little sketchy. He had faults. Just like the rest of America. The current president and his opponent.....I personally don't like either of them. This time voting was a challenge. Trying to pick the lesser of the two evils was a hard decision. I like and dislike different things about each of them. Regardless of my lack of enthusiasm for the candidates today, I'm thankful I had the right to vote. I'm thankful to have been able to get up and get out there to my polling place and let my vote count. I know as a woman, that right isn't one we've always had. It's important that we use those rights when we have the opportunity. So today I'm so very thankful that I have the right to go and vote for our nations leader. It's is something most people don't take very seriously and a lot of people take for granted.

Day 4 & 5

Today I'm going to play catch up. Talent broke out in hives yesterday and was sick so I missed a day. He seems better today so I'm going to try and get caught up on this today.

I'd like to say I'm thankful for my Mom & Daddy. Together they raised me to be a hardworking and gracious individual. They both taught me different things. Dad taught me how to fix stuff, solder, install light fixtures, and what all the tools were in his garage. Mom taught me how to bake, sew(even though I suck at it), be a great mom, and be a nurturer.

I love my parents. They are wonderful people. They have given me all of the tools I needed to be a good parent. All the things I needed to know what to do and how to raise my own child. I couldn't have asked for better examples to follow.

My Mom is my favorite Saturday date. We go and shop and do girl things together. We always have fun. There isn't anything I can't share with her. She's such a great mom and I'm so thankful that she's mine.

My Daddy is my sounding board. Whenever I need someone to just let me vent or be upset or just talk, he's there. He's my comforter when I need someone. He has always been such an amazing Daddy. He was the first love of my life.

I've been blessed beyond what I deserve with them. They are truly amazing and I just hope that they know just how amazing I think they are. So days 4 & 5.....I'm thankful for my awesome parents.

Day 3

Today I am thankful music. Without it my life would feel so empty. I've always said that I'm a music junkie. That music is like oxygen to me. It truly is. Today while on the way to take my grandparents their van back I heard a song on the radio that made me a little teary. It's a song I've heard a million times and today it just hit me a little harder simply because I'm starting the month of November. Sometimes the words I feel in my heart are hard to speak but I can find you a song to say exactly what I need to say. I'm truly thankful for music. I'm glad I get to share the beauty of music with my sweet boy and see his love for it grow. It makes me happy that he already comes to me and asks for the radio to be turned on so he can dance. So that's my thankful for today.

Day 2

Today I'm thankful for my husband. He is the love of my life, best friend, biggest supporter, greatest reality check (when needed), and best father to our child.

Seth and I have been together for almost ten years. We will be married for eight years in May. When we met neither of us were looking for a relationship. Ours just kinda happened. We really seemed to click and never really wanted to see anyone else. I fell very much in love with this green eyed boy that most people said was not a people person. I got to know a side of him that I'm positive not many people have ever seen.

When we had Talent, I think I fell more in love with this man. He was up for over 30 hours while I was in labor. He was tired and worried. Labor was 22 hours long. Things weren't progressing like we were hoping. It was looking more and more like a c section was on the horizon. He stayed right there with me and never left my side. He watched me as I threw up water (because you can't eat or drink anything during labor) every time they laid me down to check me or upped the medicine to start or restart the contractions. He never went running and screaming from the room. He held my hand or a bucket for me. He stayed. He wiped my face. He took care of me. He took care of me in the days following delivery. After the c section and I had to get up and walk. He helped me out of bed and the shower. He even put in a different shower head so I could shower easily. He was amazing and still is. He tries to give me days to sleep in. He takes Talent with him sometimes so I can have a little time to do things I need to do without a little boy screaming "Mom!" the whole time. Seth amazes me every single day.

I'm just thankful to have him. I'm thankful to have found someone in this world that loves me as much as he does. He's a pretty amazing guy. He has his moments where he is stubborn and pigheaded, but, he takes care of me. He loves me. And I'm so glad I have him.

30 days of thankfulness. Day 1

So for the last few years I have been doing 30 days of thankfulness. For those of you that don't know why or how this started I will give you a brief explanation.

A few years ago I was convince that Thursday hated me. The month of November in particular started the thought process that led up to me being convinced of this. I got into a huge fight with the best friend I'd had for 10+ years and she told me she basically hated me. We stopped talking. It happened on a Thursday. Our dog had to be out to sleep because his stomach got twisted and it broke our hearts to make that grown up decision. It happened on a Thursday. Thanksgiving day my sweet Uncle Paul, one of the greatest men I've ever known, passed away. The next day my Grandma Inez died. A few months later a man from my church that I was very close to passed away, and yes, it happened on a Thursday. So much happened in November alone that the next year I decided to help me get through the month without having a breakdown I would try and focus on the positive instead of the sad. So that is why I do this. I still struggle with these losses. Most of them anyway. So today we will kick off this years 30 Days and keep up the tradition. It's a healing process for me. And it helps me to remember to be thankful for the things & people God had blessed me with.

Day 1

Today I am thankful for the people in my life that cater to my child's special allergies. Talent is allergic to many things. Milk, egg whites, soy, wheat, & nuts. He can have everything but nuts in moderation. He absolutely has to stay away from all peanut or tree nut products. We carry an epi pen in case he's ever exposed. It terrifies me to think of him being exposed. He's not old enough to tell me he's having a hard time breathing or anything. So it's scary to me. Last night was Halloween. So you know that means candy and lots of treats. I debated on even letting him celebrate. He's little and doesn't understand. But my two BFF's here wanted to see him. So I decided I'd take him to their houses only. I got a call asking what he could have. They made sure to have safe treats for him. They took the time to get things so he could have treats at their houses too. I know that he will never get to celebrate Halloween like everyone else because I'm going to be way to protective because of his allergies. But I am glad I have friends that want to let him be included and make sure he has safe treats when he comes to their homes. It means so much to me that they care. I'm so fortunate to have such great people in my life. So today, that's what in thankful for.