Just a Great Day...

So my day has been pretty great. I woke up to a thank you note left by my husband because I cleaned up the house lastnight and did a few other things that he wanted. He didn't have to tell me thank you, but, it's nice when he does....makes me feel appreciated. I went and did my grocery shopping with my parents like I do most Saturdays. Then Mom convinced me that I needed to try out her Wii Fit....that was entertaining to say the least. I did yoga, down hill skiing, hula hooping, boxing, and I'm sure there was more. I tried to play a bunch of the games. It was fun and it made me laugh some of it. It was frustrating some of it too!! It was a good day though. I got to see my grandparents, they laughed as I did the Wii....I even got Mammaw to try to headbutt soccer balls on it at one point....which was hysterical! It was a great day.

Tonight I have the house to myself. I decided that since I cleaned house lastnight I would have myself a "girls night". You know the kind where you give yourself a mani/pedi, facial, and veg out on snacks while watching tv that you normally don't have time for? Yeah well, that's what my night is supposed to have been. I successfully did the whole mani/pedi thing and I have had a few good snacks...I swear we have nothing in this house and I just went to the store! But as I was flipping through the channels to find something on tv to watch I stumbled upon the Colts game and now I'm frozen there watching my favorite quarterback play his heart out. See the thing that most people don't know about me is that I actually enjoy watching sports. I live with a man that watches pretty much nothing but ESPN and while there are days that I get really tired of that, when he's not home, I do find myself watching football games and basketball games whenever there's a good game going and I'm home alone. Well, I've been glued to this tv for about an hour and a half now....maybe longer, cheering for Peyton Manning. This is the perfect ending to my great day.

Discovery...

So I've been trying to write on here more often. I don't know why. I'm pretty sure there are only 3 people at the most who even KNOW about this blog. But I do it anyway. I was at work today and I was listening to my iPod (suprised I know) and I swear, time just slipped away. Before I knew it, the bell for work to be over was ringing. You know in my last blog, I said music is like oxygen to me. I wasn't kidding. I discovered today that I have a very odd sense of taste in music. I found a "cd" on my iPod by "The Calling" and I haven't listened to them in years. But I fell back in love with them the moment I heard them belting out the lyrics to "Adrienne". I do this from time to time because you see I listen to so many different kinds of music that I forget about a band or a singer that I "just couldn't live without" sometimes. This week it's The Calling....next week it might be Lifehouse...although I find it hard to believe I could ever forget them. They are my "everything will be okay" band.....when everything is going wrong, I listen to them, have a good cry, and everything seems to be better. I need to listen to them sometime soon. You see, a couple months ago a friend of mine that I've had for about 10 years, well, we parted ways. I've had a difficult time walking away from that friendship. She said a lot of very hurtful things to me. She's been trying to make amends and while I give her credit for the effort, my heart doesn't feel like taking it anymore. I haven't "Lifehouse'd" it up over that one. Maybe that's why I miss her...maybe it's because she's one of those friends I always thought nothing could ever come between. Maybe it's because of all the things I helped her through and everything she'd been there for me through. I don't know. I just know that I miss her. I don't know that our relationship could ever be the same if we did try to work things out. I know that a big part of me would always hold back. And in my mind I don't think that is how friendship is supposed to be. You should be able to be honest. I know myself well enough to know that I would always hold back. But still, part of me wonders if I reach out, is my hand going to get bitten? There's a Daughtry song that I think of when I think of this situation. I know I'm hopeless. I'm musical....deal with it. It's my blog anyway.

Daughtry
Learn My Lesson

Tonight the sunset means so much
The one thing that you know you'll never touch
Like the feeling, the real thing
I reach out for that sweet dream


But somehow the darkness wakes me up
I've felt this emptiness before
But all the times that I've been broken
I still run right back for more


You'd think that I'd learn my lesson by now
You'd think that I'd somehow figure out
That if you strike the match
You're bound to feel the flame


You think that I'd learn the cost of love
Paid that price long enough
But still I drive myself right through the pain
Yeah, well it turns out, I haven't learned a thing


Sometimes I think I'm better off
To turn out the lights and close up shop
And give up the longing, believing in belonging
Just hold down my head and take the loss


You'd think that I'd learn my lesson by now
You'd think that I'd somehow figure out
That if you strike the match
You're bound to feel the flame


You'd think that I'd learn the cost of love
Paid that price long enough
But still I drive myself right through the pain
Yeah, well it turns out, I haven't learned a thing

It'll take you back....

Music. It will take you to a different place and time. To me, music is like oxygen. My world doesn't revolve without it. Tonight I was searching for my SheDaisy cd. I have all of them but for some strange reason I can't find the very first one. I've gone through all the cd cases that I have here at my house and it's no where. But while going through the cds I did find a mixed cd from "back in the day"....I put it in and listened to it. I knew what kind of music it was going to be simply by the title I had written on it. It was titled "Idiot Mix 2001-2002" so I remember very clearly what was going on in my life at that point and time. It's funny to me to listen to that cd. I put it in and even if you didn't know the story line, you would be able to pick it up fairly quickly. Music is a funny funny thing. I love it. I can listen to playlists that I have now. They all have a different "story" so to speak. See, my best friend, she's a writer. She can write these amazing stories. I often find myself wondering if she reads what I write, and if she's cringing or correcting it as she goes! I know that she's not but seriously folks, she's got talent. When she's upset, I get these "novel" emails because for her writing is comfort. For me, lyrics tell the story I can't. So she tends to get a link to a song or lyrics if I'm trying to tell her something. Because I suck at doing the emotional thing. I am great with music though. You give me story or situation and I can find you a song to fit. I love music. I always have. I always will. I think one of my all time favorite songs was actually rediscovered on that cd tonight. I had forgotten about it because it had been a while since I had heard it. But here's the lyrics to the song that stood out to me today. It's by Blessid Union of Souls and it's called "I Wanna Be There"


Won't you let me catch your fall
Won't you let me lend a hand
These lonely eyes have seen it all
But love's too blind to understand
Cause you don't know what you have
'Till your everything is gone
You need someone to show you how to live again

I wanna be there when you're feeling high
I wanna be there when you wanna die
I'm gonna light your fire
Gonna fuel your flame
I wanna be there when you go insane
I wanna be there when you're feelin' down
And I'll be there when your head is spinnin' round
Gonna be your lover
Gonna be your friend
I wanna be there 'till the end

You wouldn't know that I was there
'Cause I have been there all the time
And if I had my way I'd hold you in my arms
And leave this madness all behind

'Cause you got so much to give
But you throw it all away
And all you got to show
for who you are is pain

And I've got so much to give
If you'd only let me in
I'm gonna take the time to show you I'm a friend
You'll believe in love again

I wanna be there in the pouring rain
I wanna be there when you call my name
I'm gonna light your fire
Gonna fuel your flame
I wanna be there when you go insane
I wanna be there when I'm outta town
And when your whole damn world is crashing down
I'm gonna be your lover
Gonna be your friend
I wanna be there 'till the end

Cause you don't know what you have
Til your everything is gone
You need someone to show you how to live again

And I got so much to give
If you'd only let me in
I'm gonna take the time to show you I'm a friend
You'll believe again

I wanna be there when your baby cries
I wanna be there when they tell you lies
I'm gonna light your fire
Gonna fuel your flame
I wanna be there when you go insane
I wanna be there when your nights are long
And when you're feeling like you don't belong
Gonna be your lover
Gonna be your friend
Gonna be there 'till the end

I'm gonna be there in the morning
I'm gonna be there in the night
Gonna be your lover
Gonna be your friend
Gonna be there 'till the end

My Best Friend...

Tonight I'm wishing that I had the movie Bride Wars. I wish that I could be staying up late for a girls night with my BFF watching it. But I can't so I'm writing this blog to just take a minute and say that I have the greatest best friend ever. Bride Wars is OUR MOVIE! I swear it's so much like us. We watched the movie separately and still thought the same thoughts and had the same feelings about the movie. She's the "Emma" in our relationship and I'm the "Liv"....we balance eachother and bring out eachother's very best. We truly were meant to be best friends. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have her in my life. I remember that about a month ago she sent me chocolates just because I was having a really bad month....on the box it said something like "I thought you could use these...love Emma" ..... no her name isn't Emma. Not even close. But she's the greatest. My very own Emma. And I'm very grateful to have her. So "Emma" if you are reading this today, please know that I love you. You are the greatest best friend a girl could ever ask for.

Mastering the Art of Cheesecake....

Well, as I mentioned in my last blog post, I got a springform pan for Christmas. I have since made 3 cheesecakes. I'm quite positive that I am going to weigh 850 pounds before I finish making all the cheesecake recipes I want to try! Oh well, I've really enjoyed that pan. This weekend I took one of the cheesecakes with me to my Mom & Dad's house, along with some plates that belong to a set of china that my Grandma Inez gave me when I was 9. Grandma always told me never to touch those dishes so I have never used them, never wanted to because I was afraid of her. She passed away around Thanksgiving this year so I decided I was going to eat on those plates if it killed me. I don't believe in having dishes that you don't use....there's not anything in this world that's "special occassion" enough for me to save my dishes for. So I wanted to eat this cheesecake with Mom & Dad on Grandma's dishes. It was fun. No one died and the dishes are still fine.

I made another cheesecake today. It's a Chocolate Amaretto Cheesecake and it looks so pretty I almost don't want to cut into it. But it smells SO good! I am taking it to my inlaws tomorrow and plan on eating a piece while I'm there! I hope it tastes as good as it looks! This whole cheesecake venture was set in motion by them, they were the ones that bought the pan for me.....so I'm hoping they don't mind eating cheesecake with me for the year. I have so many recipes I want to try! I just wanted to share my latest crazy venture. The one that allows me to use my standing mixer....my most favorite kitchen appliance! That's really the latest going on with me this week. Making cheesecake....eating cheesecake....looking for lots of recipes for cheesecake....and trying to remember to exercise everyday so I don't weight 850 pounds!



And I hope you have enjoyed my latest post! I'm going to try and do this maybe once a week....but life gets busy so no promises! And here's just a random picture of my latest look.....along with one of my many scarves....I have a scarf fetish.....LOVE scarves....would be happy if I had 100 million of them....they make me happy. This one was a gift from my Brother & Sister in law....