Day 2

Today I'm thankful for my husband. He is the love of my life, best friend, biggest supporter, greatest reality check (when needed), and best father to our child.

Seth and I have been together for almost ten years. We will be married for eight years in May. When we met neither of us were looking for a relationship. Ours just kinda happened. We really seemed to click and never really wanted to see anyone else. I fell very much in love with this green eyed boy that most people said was not a people person. I got to know a side of him that I'm positive not many people have ever seen.

When we had Talent, I think I fell more in love with this man. He was up for over 30 hours while I was in labor. He was tired and worried. Labor was 22 hours long. Things weren't progressing like we were hoping. It was looking more and more like a c section was on the horizon. He stayed right there with me and never left my side. He watched me as I threw up water (because you can't eat or drink anything during labor) every time they laid me down to check me or upped the medicine to start or restart the contractions. He never went running and screaming from the room. He held my hand or a bucket for me. He stayed. He wiped my face. He took care of me. He took care of me in the days following delivery. After the c section and I had to get up and walk. He helped me out of bed and the shower. He even put in a different shower head so I could shower easily. He was amazing and still is. He tries to give me days to sleep in. He takes Talent with him sometimes so I can have a little time to do things I need to do without a little boy screaming "Mom!" the whole time. Seth amazes me every single day.

I'm just thankful to have him. I'm thankful to have found someone in this world that loves me as much as he does. He's a pretty amazing guy. He has his moments where he is stubborn and pigheaded, but, he takes care of me. He loves me. And I'm so glad I have him.

30 days of thankfulness. Day 1

So for the last few years I have been doing 30 days of thankfulness. For those of you that don't know why or how this started I will give you a brief explanation.

A few years ago I was convince that Thursday hated me. The month of November in particular started the thought process that led up to me being convinced of this. I got into a huge fight with the best friend I'd had for 10+ years and she told me she basically hated me. We stopped talking. It happened on a Thursday. Our dog had to be out to sleep because his stomach got twisted and it broke our hearts to make that grown up decision. It happened on a Thursday. Thanksgiving day my sweet Uncle Paul, one of the greatest men I've ever known, passed away. The next day my Grandma Inez died. A few months later a man from my church that I was very close to passed away, and yes, it happened on a Thursday. So much happened in November alone that the next year I decided to help me get through the month without having a breakdown I would try and focus on the positive instead of the sad. So that is why I do this. I still struggle with these losses. Most of them anyway. So today we will kick off this years 30 Days and keep up the tradition. It's a healing process for me. And it helps me to remember to be thankful for the things & people God had blessed me with.

Day 1

Today I am thankful for the people in my life that cater to my child's special allergies. Talent is allergic to many things. Milk, egg whites, soy, wheat, & nuts. He can have everything but nuts in moderation. He absolutely has to stay away from all peanut or tree nut products. We carry an epi pen in case he's ever exposed. It terrifies me to think of him being exposed. He's not old enough to tell me he's having a hard time breathing or anything. So it's scary to me. Last night was Halloween. So you know that means candy and lots of treats. I debated on even letting him celebrate. He's little and doesn't understand. But my two BFF's here wanted to see him. So I decided I'd take him to their houses only. I got a call asking what he could have. They made sure to have safe treats for him. They took the time to get things so he could have treats at their houses too. I know that he will never get to celebrate Halloween like everyone else because I'm going to be way to protective because of his allergies. But I am glad I have friends that want to let him be included and make sure he has safe treats when he comes to their homes. It means so much to me that they care. I'm so fortunate to have such great people in my life. So today, that's what in thankful for.

The Love of my Life....

So today the temperatures in Oklahoma decided to be bipolar again and reach the mid 60's. It's been in the 40's and 50's for a few days now and the mid 60's were nice, but to be honest, I'm ready for the weather to settle on ONE season! So, since it was nice outside, Seth, Talent, and I went outside to play. We threw rocks, chased the dogs, spooked the cows, and played in the sand.

While we were  outside today I had Seth bring me the camera and I took a ton of pictures. I don't remember to do that very often. But today I thought about it and actually took the time to take the pictures. So while we were outside I followed Talent around and took a ton of pictures. When we were out playing on the patio, Seth was sitting on the 4 wheeler while I was taking pictures of Talent. I got up and was joking around with him and making him laugh. I snapped off about 3 or 4 pictures of him while I was making him laugh. When I looked in the camera and saw what I had captured, it took my breath away.

If you know anything about my husband, you know he doesn't like to have his picture taken.....EVER! I have to beg and plead for pictures with or of him. In my opinion, he is the most beautiful man I've ever seen. Something about this picture tonight reminded me of the very first time I ever saw Seth. The first time I saw him was at a party at a friends house. He was all scruffy, with longer hair, and a beard.....something about him caught my attention even then. I didn't see him again or even catch his name until a few months later when I saw him a second time and he had a hair cut and a clean shaved face..... He was even more beautiful. As if that was even possible. I tell him all the time that I hate the beard and that he needs to shave. Truth be told, it reminds me of the first time I ever saw him. It takes me back to 10 years ago.....

So here's a picture of my beautiful husband. The man that I love with my entire heart. Without him, my world would be so empty. He makes me laugh, infuriates me at times, makes me feel safe, loves me unconditionally, is my best friend, always has my back, and truly just makes my life better.

Rain....

So this blog is intended for rainy days. The last three days we've had a LOT of rain. I think today we had over 2 1/2 inches. Rain is a good thing. We've really needed it. So I'm not going to complain. I've taken these rainy days to spend with my Momma, getting my house cleaned up and ready for appraisals. Don't worry we aren't moving. We are trying to get our interest rate fixed & lowered so we are refinancing. So you have to go through hoops and it's a big headache and mess. But, it will all be very worth it once it's done. So I've cleaned house all weekend. I'm tired, my back aches all the way down to my knees. But my house looks nice. I've enjoyed the time with my Momma and my kiddo. It's been a good weekend. I don't often get this much time with my Momma and I really enjoyed it. Sure I talk to her every single day, often 12 times a day, and I see her every other day usually. But we don't get to spend the majority of the day together three days in a row very often. Even though we were cleaning, it was nice. I love that lady. I loved my time with her this weekend and appreciated that she wanted to help and wanted to be here. She's pretty awesome.

Seize the day.

So today I've had a migraine straight from hell itself. One bad enough to make me sick to my stomach. I have been in our dark bedroom since Talent went to bed at 7 watching the trash I recorded on DVR.  I have not even logged in to Facebook until about 10 minutes ago. When I did I saw a friend of mine had posted a "RIP" status and as I paused to read it I realized she was saying a girl I grew up with had passed away. I guess it happened in the last few hours. From what my friend knew about the situation she passed in her sleep. I sat shell shocked re-reading her status a few times. I even went and found the girls Facebook. We had lost touch. You know how life happens. You go to school with these people everyday and once everyone goes their separate ways you lose touch. That s what happened here. We haven't seen each other in years. Although I see her Mom and sister all the time. I guess the reason I'm writing this to it is because I was reminded for the second time in two days that tomorrow isn't guaranteed. No matter your age. So seize the day. Take chances and enjoy every breath. Don't let life pass you by.

You know talking with my friend tonight, I thought back to all the funerals I've attended since graduation. Junior High even. Classmates that didn't make it. I can't even count them on both hands because there are so many. I just don't know why so many are taken so young.  I don't think I will ever understand it. Tonight my heart hurts for the family of this girl that was taken way too soon. I pray for peace for her family, kids, and husband.

Please don't take life for granted. Live and love. Don't be afraid to take chances. You are never promised your next breath.